So after many agonizing months of trying to decide the best decision...do I stay & keep working long hours to eventually reach the ultimate "goal" of making partner only to work even longer hours OR do I leave & spend time with my daughter resulting in splitting our household income in 1/2 and putting my career at a great firm on indefinite hold??? In the end I decided I need to give this full-time mommy thing at least a try. While my husband wasn't initially on board with this idea when it first became a thought several months ago by the time the final decision was made he was 100% supportive or at least that is what he said.
I had thought the hardest part was over when I had finally made the decision to leave my job but little did I know that it was going to be just as hard to actually sit down & tell my firm I was leaving. As someone who is not usually too emotional, I completely surprised myself when I burst into tears when I informed the lead partner of my firm that I was leaving. To my surprise he was more than supportive as were many of the other associates and partners BUT there were definitely a fair of share of people who made it very clear that I was not making a good decision. Needless to say even after everyone knew that I was leaving....I still had my doubts.
I left almost 4 weeks after I informed the firm of my departure. It was weird & a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Even though I could not stand billing hours and there were cases I had that I would have paid to get rid of...walking through those doors for the last time & leaving that all behind was really emotional. As I sit here now after one week at home, I still haven't decided if I made the right decision for me or for my family.
I am looking forward to this new journey....here we go!
